It has been a difficult week. My sleep is fitful. I wake up exhausted. There is a root cause. I know this.
I am doing too much.
I am not doing enough.
I need a plan.
I consider myself fairly self-aware – always with a pulse on my own mood and motivations but this is a new realm for me. There was a lull in my life. For the past five years or so, I waited for bad news. After two cancer treatments, I resigned to a fairly short life and loosely defined plans.
Shortly after celebrating my 41st birthday this year, I realized that long-term plans are due now. But with that realization also comes regret for the time passed and opportunities not taken. It’s been a tough year but I’m looking forward to 2013. There are opportunities galore on the horizon and I am ready to be fully awakened.